Hokay

HOKAY

All right folks!  It's not the end of Ze world.  Sooo.... bring on the self motivational tools.  Grab a cheerleader or make one yourself.            (high kicks and splits optional)

Let's snap to it
buck up
put on your big girl panties
suck it in
stand up straight
take a deep breath and
slap a smile on your face

It is time to put my hair into Polyanna braids, don my rose colored glasses, sing a few off key bars of "Tomorrow" from Annie, and get to work on being positive. 

So I owe the IRS...... Pfffft...  Who cares.    It's only a few (cough) thousand dollars.

Better yet, let's look at the bright side to owing IRS shall we?   hmmm.....   errr...  good side...  ehhhhhh....

OK.... so maybe there is no bright side to owing IRS any amount of money, much less A FEW THOUSAND fucking dollars.....  but we shall persist anyway, and find a &(@)$(! silver lining if it kills us...  er me.

So ummm yea a bright side....

HOKAY it is not the end of the world.   THINK.

Alrighty then.  A bright side is that I had a Roth IRA to rob,  the key word of course is HAD.   Past tense.   The IRA is now depleted, gone, kaput, finis.  My re-start of a retirement account gone in an instant.  BUT the federal IRS tax can be paid.

 :::dusts off hands::::

I also had, again the key word HAD, enough money left in my home equity line of credit to cover the state income tax. Oh sure, the credit line was mainly used to replace car engines blown (read long ago blog entries for all those good times), or in case of emergency...  and this qualifies as an emergency.    But (le sigh) it was also an equity line that was slowly, creeping it's way down into a dollar range that didn't make me shiver or cry to see, until today.   But now, the glorious state of GA bill is also paid in full!  So what the hell.  What's a little more debt?  I'll just work til I'm 80.  Yea, that's the ticket!

 ::::dusts off hands again::::   

So now I no longer owe the IRS.   YAY me.  

In a sense, I just owe myself.... with interest being charged of course.  And to save that kind of money again will take me another 8 years or more which won't amount to shit to help me in retirement, but it is official!   I don't owe the government.   YAY me. 

Who the F cares that I have no retirement, no safety net, no back up plan, no fail safe, no rainy day fund, AND that I am in debt up to my equity credit limit which is a small fortune in itself!  Not me! Nope, working well into my 80's sounds like a great way to live.

But... and here it comes, GASP...  can it be another bright side?!!!

I may be completely broke, alone, in debt and with no retirement at all, and doomed to work into my 80's, I am SOOOOO fortunate as to still be living in my awesome house;  my kids and I are healthy;  I am gainfully employed again with a nice job, and .. the best part of all....

currently eating chocolate chip cookies backed fresh from the oven.

......it's all in the cookies, you know.  Cookies are the bomb.

:::::::::pushes the rose colored glass back on her face:::::::

Hokay....

So see it's not the end of the world ....   This is....